This Butterfly Award was given to me by Ms. Marika of A Fashionista and Ms. Kai of Brew of the Day. Thank you! The rule's simple. Write
about yourself. I don’t know where to start so I might as well go with
the basics first and see where it takes me.
I’m 19. I studied
Communication and majored in Journalism. I’m studying Fashion Styling and
Merchandising now but never Fashion Design because I draw like a kid. I’m more
of an afternoon-type-of-girl-who-loves-to-have-coffee-with-friends-and-stay-at-home
instead of a party-girl-who-stays-up-until-the-wee-hours-of-the-morning. Yes,
I’m also quite a nocturnal but I devote my time to reading books, watching
series and films, contemplating about life (more like daydreaming), and anything
that catches my heart – from serious down to the nonsensical ones.
I love collecting
make-up but I always end up giving them because my loyalty belongs only to
moisturizer and eyeliner. Looking for that perfect eyeliner which fulfills its
promise to not smudge has always been challenging for me so if you have any
recommendations, please tell me. I consider my fashion sense quite safe because
I’m always in black and neutral shades. I hoard shoes but most of my purchases are black pumps in varying heights and finishes. Dainty accessories
also inspire me.
Going on a deeper level, I had a difficult
time battling false perceptions about me. I’m this person who’s usually shy
when I’m surrounded with people I’m not so familiar with. I reveal less about
myself which probably makes me intimidating. I had to
transfer from one school to another but come high school, God blessed me with
classmates who eventually became my soul sisters and brothers. Some human minds
didn’t stop from twisting stories (see reason here) and the whole
situation pained me so much. Surprisingly, I stayed in the school for four
years – my longest stay. I was the youngest in the class, that’s why my 36
classmates protected me as much as they could. Up until now, I’m still in love
with these amazing people.
Yes, I’m still
liked…and misjudged. However, I realized that maybe it’s the reason why God
blessed me with a calm soul – so that I wouldn’t break down easily and start
fighting back. We cannot please everyone. It’s repetitive but it’s true. I
think I already came to the point wherein I couldn't care less what
others think. Of course, I won’t deny that I feel happy when people say that
I’m so much different from what they thought of me. It has always been my
favorite part.
I used to love flirting with danger. It’s as if the risks made me feel so alive. Everything changed when one of my high school classmates, my informal Math tutor, my high school thesis group mate, and my close friend was murdered 8 months ago by some of his colleagues who weren’t able to tame their insecurities. He was the breadwinner of the family but maybe, God wanted him to be by His side already. Sure, we can’t stop things from happening. Death is inevitable but what happened to my friend became a wake-up call for me. We might have accepted the fact that he’s gone for now but I still pray that the persons who stabbed his head countless times would come out, ask for forgiveness, and correct the monstrosity that they’ did.
I used to love flirting with danger. It’s as if the risks made me feel so alive. Everything changed when one of my high school classmates, my informal Math tutor, my high school thesis group mate, and my close friend was murdered 8 months ago by some of his colleagues who weren’t able to tame their insecurities. He was the breadwinner of the family but maybe, God wanted him to be by His side already. Sure, we can’t stop things from happening. Death is inevitable but what happened to my friend became a wake-up call for me. We might have accepted the fact that he’s gone for now but I still pray that the persons who stabbed his head countless times would come out, ask for forgiveness, and correct the monstrosity that they’ did.
Apart from my friends,
my family definitely makes my heart flutter but I want to make a separate post
about everyone as this might become so long!
I’m in love with my
Father, my family, my dogs, and with the man whom I’ve been with for almost
three years now. As much as I don’t want to compare, with him, I realized that
a relationship can be not as stressful and as dramatic as my former
relationships were (a three-month one and a two-year one). Sure, we’ve had lots
of fights, some of them trivial. The difference is, he always finds a way to
work everything out and he always makes me want to do the same thing.
We’re different in
many ways. He loves to follow a schedule, he’s organized, he doesn’t trust
people easily, he’s so good in Math, he cooks so well, and so on. Both our
families show their love for us - fact that makes us stronger as well. Needless to
say, this is the first (and with His grace, the last) time I allowed someone to have my whole heart with nothing held back.
I also love spoiling kids. When I’m
with my friends, I persuade them to come with me to Gingersnaps so that I
could admire endless piles of clothes (and buy some for my nephews, nieces, neighbors kids, and so on).
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| Vacation Bible School of kids from the church and one of my beauty boo-boos - full upper bangs. |
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| Annual outreach program with ze Kappa Epsilon
I think this post is getting long
already, sorry. So there, I’m this girl who after everything still emerges with
my rose-tinted glasses on. I never fail to see that “something” even in the
most “nothing” of things simply because of the silent strength being blessed
upon me.
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