Things might not be rosy for you now but He knows the reason for everything. You have so many questions that you can't even find the right words to encapsulate what you feel but it's okay, He doesn't need fancy prayers. He already knows the cry of your heart even before you decided to come to Him.
He is closest when you’re at your most vulnerable. Do not despise struggles for they give us a chance to call on to Him and be embraced by His grace – something that not always happens when everything’s in its rightful order.
Allow Him to carry your uncertainties and your heartaches for the comfort that He can give you will never be outmatched by anything in this world. You will be left wounded not just once but when you’re at your lowest, remember that nothing – even the unexpected and unimaginable – can make Him turn away from you.