In my
mom’s side, I have three uncles and an aunt who are pastors/ministers. Even if
my cousins and I grew up bombarded with Bible stories, we weren’t exactly the
poster kids for obedience. I joined the band, danced ballet, and penned stories
for theatrical shows but there were times when I wondered if I was merely doing
those things because they were expected of me.
Your
walk with Him is something that you figure out on your own despite the positive
influences surrounding you. I considered Christianity as a fallback. I did
things on my own and went back to my faith whenever I felt like it. Out of my
yearning to prove my self-sufficiency, I have made decisions which pained the
people dear to me.
Fast
forward to the 22-year-old me, I still question myself at times if I am in the
right path. While having such kind of occasional assessment is healthy, it can
likewise pave way for uncalled-for pressure.
Those
instances when I have misgivings about my capabilities, I just think of what
Joel Houston said that night. That we have nothing to prove anymore for
the victory has been won when He died for us. There is no point in adhering to
the world's notion of "having it all" because He already did everything
for us.
Such
is the hope that continues to stay with me.
I
also loved the part where we sang “Mighty to Save.” There’s this line
that goes like, “Shine the light and let the whole world see.” Such line
prompted everyone to wave their phones with built-in flashlights.
Getting
tickets for the concert proved to be a test of character (sold-out in less than
a day!) but thankfully, I got to experience the joy of worshipping with
thousands with my brother, cousins, and boyfriend. Hillsong Conference, you’re
next!
